Calling Card

What would it take to call you, to get your attention? My finances... shot. My education... rocky. My family.... strong but, struggling. My friends...i might have 2. My love life...lacking love. All at the same time. Oh and my car... parked. What would it take to make me fall on my knees and call on the lord? Thats not bad luck or just hard times. I was raised in the church, so i know a calling card when I see one. Things are to the point that I cant take no more, and I wont test his power. Im answering his call. It's so bad, cant drive by my church, or leave my tv on BET when i fall asleep on a saturday night because i dont want to hear or have to turn the channel from the sermon that will be on when i wake up on sunday and turn on my tv. I know its bad, but I suppose its just my time. I've seen these moments of trial in my life before. Testimony 1: I know i got into college on a prayer, because i messed up really bad my first 2 years of high school, and for me to get into a great competitive school like i did was a miracle. but i strayed away from the lord after my S.A.T's was over... it turned out i couldnt afford to keep going to my school without him.
Testimon 2: I was in a one way love realtionship with a man i couldnt leave, no matter how bad he treated me, i stayed because i loved him and wasnt strong enough to leave him. I prayed about my situation and God gave me a clear sign that i needed to separate myself. I did and never looked back. Testimony 3: I stopped going to church, i was getting mixed up in catty drama that did nothing but hurt people. I was a telemarketer at the time. I called this one ladys house on a saturday morning trying to get her to re-join the book club, she said no, but before I could hang up she started talking to me about Jesus, i didnt hang up on her, although I easily could have. I listened to what she had to say and I cried like a baby on the phone with her beacuse everything she said , i already knew. It was so strange because she talked to me like she knew me, like she was my auntie or something. She wasnt all preachy and heaven and hell like some, but she talked to me on my level and i understood her. That proved to me that I could never get away from God, I wasnt unreachable or untouchable like I thought. I remember the last time i was feeling really good and very blessed, it was almost 3 years ago. I was attending church regularly with my girlfriends and my exboyfriend. I got too comfortable in my success. I always think about my life back then. Things are always better for me when I keep God at the head of my life. I realize at this moment that he can take everything away just like that. He has let me face some difficult times since i wanted to do my own thing, but he gave me my health and kept me from putting myself under. If I wasn't precious to him he wouldn't waste his time sending me all these calling cards! So once again im going to answer his call and try my best to stay near to him. Like Donnie McCurklin says "we fall down but we get up"! Joel Olsteen says "The greatest difficulty comes right before your promise" and "Its always darkest right before the dawn". So with these words of incouragement i move on to a better me, the real me, a blessed me!