Its Simply Sickening

Its just sickening. Get a room. Go some where i cant see you.

Its been so long but, it feels just like yesterday. I touched you, i smelt you, and i could feel you deep inside of me. I see you in the distance but i cant make my way to you right now. Theres too many obstacles, and people imitating you right now. Im not ready. The memory of your warmth is what keeps me going on. Its no secret that i need you. I try to live my day to day life without you. But i know the time is coming when im going to have you. In the mean time i cant stand to see other people with you. Its simply sickening. Public displays of affection should but outlawed. Its simply sickening. Holding hands should be outlawed. Its simply sickening. Dont stare all misty eyed. Its simply sickening. I cant stand to see people in love, its simply sickening. Stop all the cuddling and shit. Dont brush her hair and dont bite his lip. She been working all day, dont rub her feet. His tired and hungry, dont make him dinner, order in him something to eat. Stop running that bath water, leave the trash and the dishes in the sink. Dont iron his shirt and fly off at the mouth with out stopping to think. Dont wash his car and dont put gas in her tank. Dont buy her no shoes, dont put money in his bank. Stop all this love crap. Its simply sickening.
As the sky turns dark and im alone with more of my thoughts i find whats even more sickening. This hurts but the truth is, Im in love with the idea of being in love. I miss the warmth of an embrace, a kiss and a hug. I keep a special place in my bed, a vacancy for love. I have this hunger thats never fed. Diamonds, shoes and food are the artificial version of big red. Theres nothing out there like it, to never love again, i'd rather be dead. There were times that i wanted to feel you so bad i settled for less than i should off. Its simply sickening. Its a 4 letter word that drives me insane. The rush i get from being in love is similar to the feeling of take off on a plane. I honestly miss you soo bad and cant wait to have you again. Its simply sickening.
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